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Why can't I realize all this hatred for you is only torturing me?
I feel all better and relieved for a while when you leave me alone
But then you guilt trip me to weasel your way back into my life
Why do you always have to say your children need to have their grandfather in their life
No not when I can't forgive you for the things you have done to me as a child
No not when I can't trust you alone with them
No not when you just want to walk in and out of their lives
Why can't I realize all this hatred for you is only torturing me?
I feel all better and relieved for a while when you leave me alone
But then you guilt trip me to weasel your way back into my life
Why do you always have to say your children need to have their grandfather in their life
No not when I can't forgive you for the things you have done to me as a child
No not when I can't trust you alone with them
No not when you just want to walk in and out of their lives
Why can't I realize all this hatred for you is only torturing me?
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Holes for Ears
I live in fear,
because I was torn ear to ear.
Or rather my ears were torn off,
after being repeatedly told off.
Or maybe I was told, "I'm off."
It's hard to remember and hard to know,
because I can never hear again.
Unless my ears regrow.
But the holes that are left
left better access to my brain.
Hopefully by seeing straight in there,
I can better diagnose the pain.
But instead I think I see just mush,
thoughts and firing and lots of stuff.
But I don't see love, I don't see sane.
I just see stuff you call my brain.
I wish I could still hear,
but I can still see your smile.
And if they tear out my eyes,
you'll still be smi
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Why do I care when she doesn't talk to me?
Why do I care when she doesn't talk to me? It's not like it matters, it's not like it's hurting me...
Well, no, maybe that isn't true. It is hurting me. Why does it hurt me? It shouldn't matter that she isn't talking to me. It's not a big deal. It's not like she's ignoring me...
What if she's ignoring me? Is she ignoring me? She tells me she's busy. I believe her I really do, but there's always this part of me that tells me I'm just annoying. Why would someone want to talk to me? I'm not good enough...
I'm never good enough. I push myself, put so much pressure on myself. People tell me I'm good at things, but I can't see it. I can't belie
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Honestly, I'm Fine.
Today I found myself in the bathroom
counting my dead grandmother’s pills.
I lined them up—little stepping stones (Path to the gallows):
faded, cracked; eroded like so many before us,
still as death and quieter.
I glimpse my face—red noise and eyes like
Silhouettes of spheres and their shadows—
But settle on the noose of a collar ‘round my neck.
The flushing toilet left an ache
in the back of my mind
that I just can’t
quite get
rid of (I speak and it’s all stomach acid).
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So I have been researching what it would take to to get my book published and here are the steps that I need to take:
1) hire a literacy agent
2)travel when I get an interview with that agent
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1) hire a literacy agent
2)travel when I get an interview with that agent
3) get my poetry into book form
That saying it is going to be a lot of money and I really want to do this. Even if I just help one person to realize hey you not a lone in the things you are going through. I do not want people to go down the dark path I went down.
So I have made this website to get my book out there if you guys could help I would really appreciate it even if you just share this on your page
thank you so much
Here is the link
www.gofundme.com/chpyw4
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just a nice piece, it reminds me of someone. . .